I didn't feel remorse, guilt, satisfaction or feeling cared for. I mostly felt scared of the way people treat me in real life, and sad that I have to experiment with making stories up in order to experience how people react to me differently. Mostly when I make stories up, I'm interested to see if I can create a believable alternate reality for me, a reality that is more real than the reality I experience. I feel defeated a lot of the time, so I try to create alternate realities for myself.