Writing the novel is like telling the truth. I want to tell the truth and remain open to my mind and my body. Writing a novel is like being open to the truth of my mind, and being a stripper is like being open to the truth of my body. I wonder if my novel will get published, or if I will get to be a stripper for people who want me to entertain them with my honesty. It can feel overwhelming to try to be honest like this, especially when it's not reciprocated by others.