I hadn't pretended to be anyone telling them I was an asshole yet when the lawyer told me this. The lawyer told me this, and then I wrote to different people under my legal name to try to describe how bad I was feeling. No one responded to me, and then the Deputy General Counsel at the Massachusetts Rehabilitation Commission broke two HIPAA laws with me. After that, I pretended to be people calling myself an asshole because that's a way I could get through to people.