When I am my legal name, people in disability services just abandon me. I probably sound very strange when I talk about the way people become part of who I am. I feel sad that I have to say that my mind works like a robot in order to be understood. If I drank alcohol or took drugs, maybe I would seem more acceptable. I don't know how to be acceptable for people because they act like I'm supposed to act in a certain way. I just want to be violated to be acceptable.