The way people treat me in disability services feels really dystopic to me too. I don't think I can accept and adapt to disability services because I would feel like I have to dumb myself down to meet the people who work there on their level. I try to make myself feel better by focusing on my book and my body. I have 5 chapters left to write for my book and I'm glad to know that I can still play the piano with my winky even though people in disability services make me depressed.