I don't know how to be real, so I just start creating alternate realities to live in. I asked my dad if he would rape me weeks ago, but he didn't rape me. I just try to become different people. This afternoon I have an appointment with therapist in England as a British teenager, so I'll talk to her about things too. The lawyer I had told me I was using being different people, that I was smarter than that, but I don't understand what he means. I don't know how I would survive being one person.