I've felt close to girls since I was a kid, but I always stayed away from romance. I feel distant from intimacy a lot of the time. I feel like love is something I have to portray because mostly I feel fear. I don't have an easy time being romantic because it almost feels unnatural. I feel overwhelmed by the way people treat me and that fear is difficult for me to hide in romantic relationships. I hope I can become a male stripper so I can try to entertain women outside the context of intimacy.