Right. I understand that you're trying to feel heard by people who have, for a long time, not responded to you in a humanizing way. I hear your confusion and struggle to figure out how to cope with that reality and how violating that has felt. Do you feel like there's been any acceptance in your system that things have happened, and been very confusing and frustrating, and that you can start the process of letting go of that experience rather than holding onto it?