I'm not sure what is the real way I am, but I'm glad you are responsive to me as Jason. I keep anticipating being raped in order to feel valid because I feel like a fake. I felt less hungry last week for some reason, and I haven't had anything to eat yet today. I've exercised every day this year so far, and I try to prepare to become a stripper. It's confusing to know how to be an acceptable human being. There's more pressure on me to act in a certain way because I look masculine to others.